Femin-Yin

Long time, no tea.  :)  When I first began my pursuit of incorporating geisha practices into my life, I thought that I would be learning techniques...strategies....things that would allow me to be a better catch and ultimately a better partner.

At first, it felt strange - using my "danna" and other random men as guinea pigs for my efforts.  My mannerisms were forced, unnatural, inauthentic.  So I began to abandon the teachings - and this blog.

What I didn't realize is that while I thought that I was moving away from the art, the art was being reborn inside of me. It began with an almost imperceptible embracing of my femininity in a way that I never have before.  I have always enjoyed being a woman and have never felt as though my gender was a burden or something to overcome.  On the other hand, I never quite delved into what it means to fully be YIN...the complement to YANG.

The last few months have been absolutely transformational - even though I wasn't consciously aware that transformation was taking place.  So much so, that I have changed the theme and focus of the Vision Wall that I'd held onto for the past 3 years.  For me, that is major because it represents a change or (at the very least) an awakening in my core.

Becoming a geisha...hell...becoming a woman, is powerful.  It's more than hair, make-up, nails, walking, smiling, etc.  It's an essence that you feel when you're sitting still.  It's the sense of calm assurance that you radiate because you hold the secrets of the universe in your being.  Not just the secrets of womanhood, but the knowledge of how you exist harmoniously in relation to man - whether that man is your lover, son, co-worker, pet, neighbor or absolute stranger.  And of course, the natural byproduct of that assurance...that infusing of femininity that stems from your core creates a positive outcome in relation to interacting with men.

One of the things about YIN, is that it represents a time of stillness, meditation, intuition, quiet.  Most times, people think that during this period nothing much is going on.  What I'm learning is that during my period of  YIN-derstanding, I have been chipping away at walls that I've built emotionally, clearing away debris that I had neglected and allowed to gather in the corners of my spirit.  Things that prevented me from fully experiencing and enjoying being a moving, living, breathing work of art.

"And when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly..."